Regrets and Resentment.....

Throughout my days I have a lot of time to think about things that have happened or things that are going on now. I find that I'm regretting a lot of things that has happened and even resenting some things that are happening now! I know it isn't good to regret or to resent just some of the things that have happened in the past and that are even going on now bothers me. I'm going to try to fix these issues I'm having by turning to the Bible for guidance with my problems and hopefully it will help me find the answers I need to mend whats going on. Also I am hopefully going to find some way to sit down with my husband and discuss some issues with him so that he knows how I feel and we can grow from there. 

1 John 1:9 

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Matthew 6:12-13

And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Happy Father's Day!!

Hope everyones had a good Father's Day, I know my hubby hasn't because they've had duty all weekend in the kitchen. Yesterday when he called he said that he stood in front of the sink all day long scrubbing and that his knees were not getting any better that they were only getting worse. So hopefully once he's back I can make it up to him and show him how proud his little family is of him, hmmmm maybe breakfast in bed one morning!! HAHA probably not till after Jr is here!!

So I go in tomorrow for routine the last routine checkup with this dr, YAY!!! Hopefully it goes well and nothing MAJOR happens. I'm 3 days away from 18 weeks and hopefully 6 away from having my recruit home for good!!

Not really much on my mind tonight other than my boobs are killing me and I really want something sweet but am afraid of the heartburn that follows!!! Can anyone tell me whether or not that means the baby will have a lot of hair or is that a myth??

Long Day

Ok so I woke up around 11 or 12 something because I didn't really sleep good last night, kept getting this funny feeling and then I also woke up sweating my booty off!! Once I got up I got ready and my mother and I went shopping!! YAHOO!!! Nothing like shopping to cheer a girl up!! We went to Bed, Bath, & Beyond and walked around for what seemed like hours, thats when I started getting light headed and had to lean against the cart, I tried hurrying my mother along but naturally that didn't happen, I swear she slowed down even more. After that we went to Target to do a little shopping for me and baby!! Haha I got my first set of maternity clothes and they're actually pretty comfy, I got a pair of capris and shorts, a bathing suit, and 2 cute tops so I think I'm a little ready for whats to come!! While we were walking around in the baby section though, it all went down hill, I got SO light headed and had the urge to puke and got really tingly feeling so I had to find somewhere to sit down immediately so I sat down on the thing they were using to display the cradles. My mom about freaked, she said I was pail and REALLY clammy feeling and said that we should call my dr but that she is as worthless as tits on a boar hog when it comes to things being wrong with me!! I must agree but enough about my dr, my mother got SO much for Baby Alec, it was SO unreal, she even got Jake and I a pack n play for him which was incredible!!  I'll try to get some pics up on here of everything she got him today. After all the shopping was done, we came home and ate supper and then my hubby called!!! I hadn't heard from him in a couple days so it was nice to hear how he was doing and also it was great to hear that he got a start date on his papers to come home!! MY HUSBAND SHOULD BE HOME BY THIS FRIDAY!!!! YAY!!! This is what we'd been waiting for since they told him he was getting discharged!!! So now I need help picking out what to wear to go get my hubby, keep in mind he hasn't seen me in almost 2 months and will be in shock to see how my belly looks now!!! So I'll get to to put together my outfit ALL week long and hopefully post a pic of it so you guys can tell me how it looks!! Well I hope everyones doing good and hopefully all the daddys out there have a great fathers day!!!

SURPRISE!!!!

Haha ok so I had planned on waiting and telling Jake(DH) what the baby was when he got home but he sounded SO depressed today because the TIs were riding them and plus cause he still doesn't have a start date so that means we don't know when he'll be home :-(. So as a little pick me upper I decided to tell him so that he'd having something good about his day! Once I told him he started crying and was SO happy!! He said that he was going to go back to the barracks and tell EVERY person that would listen that we're having a boy. So now he got an early Father's Day gift and once he's back home he can still have his cake that I made him!!

Tiny Scare!!!

Nearly a hour ago we had a little scare!! I had to go to the bathroom for the millionth time today and when I wiped I had a little bit of blood on it. As soon as I saw that I freaked out. I text my mother and asked her if it was normal and she told me not to worry but to stop for the day and put my feet up and just listen to my babies heartbeat. As soon as I got my bed cleared off I got my fetal doppler out and immediately found my baby boys heartbeat and it sounded incredible and then he started moving all around the place so I couldn't keep track of him long but as soon as I heard his heartbeat, I just relaxed and felt better. Now I'm just laying here and afraid to move but I'm starving but maybe I can talk my mom or my dad into fixing me a burger :-) oh the joys of the grandparents getting their first grandbaby!!

Convenient or BIG Hassle??

Ok so in this generation I've seen a lot of mothers saw that they're going to use cloth diapers on their babies cause its better for the baby. Is this really true or is it just people jumping into a trend for babies??

I, myself, am going to use cloth diapers after the BIG Pampers Swaddlers with Dry Max thread went around. My nephew was born May 21 of this year and one day while down at my brother and sister in laws, we were changing his diaper and he had blisters on the insides of his little legs and it was the saddest thing I've ever seen!! This was my first hand encounter with the Pampers and at that moment, I vowed that I wouldn't let that happen to my baby so I started digging around and ran across the cloth diapers, they are indeed better for your baby and you won't have all the diaper rash plus its better for the environment, no I'm not going ALL green or anything I just want something thats good for my baby that I won't regret!! Now I have opted to do cloth diapers at home but when we go out in public to use disposable that way I don't have to cart around the diaper the entire time stinking every place up. Whether other people would do this is their choice but I feel that it will be the best choice for my child.

Sorry for the little bit of a vent/lecture thing, I just had to get this off my chest!!

17 Weeks!!!

Haha you guys may think this is crazy but I do it for my hubby so that he can read them plus I'm going to print them off and put them in a scrapbook for baby boy so he  has something when he gets older!!


Dear Reader,


My skeleton is changing from soft cartilage to bone, and the umbilical cord — my lifeline to the placenta — is growing stronger and thicker. I weigh 5 ounces now (about as much as a turnip), and I'm around 5 inches long from head to bottom. I can move my joints, and my sweat glands are starting to develop. My mommy is starting to feel me move more and more each week and even saw and felt me kick yesterday. Daddy doesn't know what I am yet but once he gets home she has a BIG surprise for him, hopefully he won't be too mad at mommy for hiding the fact that she knew!! If he is maybe I can get him wrapped around my little finger so he won't stay mad too long. Anyways, I'm going back to playing and stretching!! 



Baby Boy Brogdon

Everything Changes for a reason

So for the past few months I've been thinking about everything that has changed. I was set to leave for Air Force basic in August and was signed into the medical field, what I'd been wanting from the get go, but then the unexpected happened, the doctor called me and told me I was pregnant. I can honestly say that I'm 1000x happier right now than I would've been, I have the most amazing husband in the world and an amazing little boy on the way. Sure things happened a little quicker than I would've liked for it to but some things just happen for a reason, whether we want it to or not.

So I got to talk to my hubby today and he said that he'd be home as late as next Friday so the Brogdon family will be having a late Father's Day but this will definitely be one we'll remember for a lifetime. Before I got off the phone with Jake he said that he knew for 100% that the baby was a girl but boy does he have a SURPRISE waiting for him!!! HAHA!!! I just hope he's as happy about a little boy as he has been about wanting a little girl. I'm honestly starting to get nervous about everything, well everything to do with baby, I'm afraid I won't be a good mom and that I won't be able to give my husband equal attention once the babies here. Are these normal feelings?? I sure hope so!!! I have so much going on right now....and I'm completely stressed and exhausted...how am I supposed to do everything??